The final MDH update. When he ended it 2 weeks ago stating that he just couldn’t deal with a dog, a lot of what I was struggling with was this
I hate “what ifs” and I knew that the dog thing was not what was really going on. Over those 2 weeks, we talked everyday, saw each other a couple of times…and eventually, he was able to verbalize that it wasn’t the dog thing, it was the fear of getting hurt again. That those ghosts of past relationships were haunting him something fierce.
Friday he came over to my house and said that he wanted to be with me…that he thought of me every minute of the day and was miserable without me. That he wanted to silence the ghosts and move forward. So we spent the weekend together. And then last night, his ghosts came back and he called me and said, “I don’t think I can do this”. To which I replied, “And I KNOW I can’t do this. I care so much about you, but the balance is now tipped to where being with you, is more stressful than good. And I know it’s time to let you go.”.
Ok, onto other topics!
Saturday morning was just stupid.
So 6 miles were pounded out on my treadmill while watching the end of season 1 of Sons of Anarchy…am totally into it…although not like GOT. Nothing will be like GOT.
…beautiful right? Yeah, no. I spent 4 hours cleaning out EVERY cupboard in the kitchen and washing almost every dish and every utensil because mice had a full-out ALL WINTER LONG party in there. Seriously. They found a jar elsewhere in the cottage that we throw our beer caps in…and they lugged THEM ALL into the cupboards and strewed them everywhere. Along with their “droppings”.
I have no pics because trust me, you didn’t need to see it. Although I will show you the awesome retro vacuum we have up there!
I came back into the city in time to cheer on my teammates racing in Ottawa’s 10k (there were over 13,000 people in it).
Here is fast girl. She rocked a 38:58 minute 10k. Sick. My friend Kyle Desormeaux rocked his 10k in a time of 32:16. REALLY sick. He was running so fast I couldn’t even get a pic! lol
Saturday night Abby and I spent at MDH’s house and I agreed to watching the UFC fights with him (I’m a difficult girlfriend, aren’t I? lol). OMG. I knew I wasn’t a fan of UFC before, but more because I just don’t understand WHY guys want to make a living beating on each other. Yes, yes, yes, yes, I know that there’s this whole art and technical side to it, but at the end of the day, this is what happens…
My Sunday run was 10 miles after I cheered on teammates and friends running Ottawa’s half and full marathon – including my “long run” run buddy, Andy!
It put me in such a good mood that I wasn’t even angry at my hair yesterday.